The true love

The true love

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

I left...

Yes, now it's too late

You complained

till I was with you

The moments of joy

The search of love

The dreams

The enmity

Everything you were 

Occupied with

Do you realise now?

That I left

Everything changes its meaning.

You can't even move now

See, you failed 

to realize

Not your parents

Your partner

Your career

None but me- 

Your 'life'

Is your true love

Without me, now

you are

just a piece of flesh 

and bones

Now, you are Just dead.

The God's imagination

The God's imagination

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

I have a secret..

To see it, close your eyes

Here you come, 

This is my world

This adorable creature, yes, 

You can never find it on earth

Ah, this beautiful woman- 

Her skin is more radiant than the sun.

Look above

The sky that you see.

And yes,

Even the ground on which you stand.

The breeze you feel,

The sun,

The moon,

The planets,

The stars,

The entire cosmos...

Everything's so different

May be much better than 

what you have ever seen, isn't it?

You know what? 

This is my creation

Yes, I created them!

Brahma-the 'creator' resides within me

For this creation to be, 

there has to be an order

I become Vishnu-the 'change' 

And maintain the order.

Due to change

Creation proceeds towards destruction 

to become something new(creation)

Yes, I take the form of 

Shiva-the 'destroyer' 

to complete the cycle of eternity of my creation

I am the trideva:

God-the 'imagination' 

The source of everything

Do you know where you are now? 

You are in- 

My(God's) imagination

Awaken and understand-

That even I am in yours!

Heaven in Hell

"Heaven"-in hell

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

Devil, please-

Control, unleash?

To all the god lovers,

Let me tease

In the dark, I forget to fear

The evil in others, I get to see very clear

Greed, lust or pleasure-I need not control

Love, kindness and peace-I am here to mould

Do 'this'

Do 'that'

Do all, that I want.

Who cares for karma?

When I control the dawn

The world's destiny, I get to create

Write a fresh story-

After clearing the divine slate

Come, help me!

As you have, so far

I promise,

I'll take you along,

My brother:

To the "heaven"- in hell

What a coincidence

What a coincidence!

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

Growing up turning to taking up job;

Being healthy turning to chiselled physique;

Clothing turning to fashion.

Meetings turning to video calls;

Few special friends turning to social networking.

Peaceful life turning to fast paced culture;

All we need turning to money.

Being satisfied turning to not being ambitious;

Forgiving someone turning to not having self respect;

Religion turning to narrow thinking;

Love turning to lust.

The world turning to small nations;

We all are equal turning to special reservations;

Fighting for own rights turning to terrorism;

Village turning to city;

Wildlife turning to zoo;

Love nature turning to save nature.

And now me turning to writer,

What a coincidence!

I am the punisher and the punished

I am the punisher and the punished!

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

The place where knowledge begins and ends simultaneously-

Yes, that is where I live.

I journey from where the universe originates to where it extends.

All that exists now and will ever exist in future-I know

The wheel of time moves and stops at my command.

I have seen every creature since the time, nothing existed.

For I am the one whom you call-'God'

You know all but not that-

I commit murder,

I commit rape,

I commit suicide...

I commit crime

against myself,

To get punished.

To end and start

Both the suffering and the happiness

The criminal,

The victim,

The punisher,

And the punished-

All is me.

This suffering is what makes "us" human,

This happiness is what makes "us" divine.

In love with you

In love with you

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

I have seen you in my thoughts

Met you in everyone I have seen

I have felt your heartbeat in my heart

Sensed you through all my senses

I call you through my name

Known you more than I know me

You are every moment of my life

You are eternity of my soul

Yes, I am in love!

I have fallen in love with you in me...

I am a man

I am a man

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

I am measured-measured all the time,

Sometimes for good grades,

Earnings sometimes.

I won't get a girl 

If I don't have a house, 

And a car, and bank balance...

See, I have to earn the spouse

Yes I get sexual urge,

Neither I am a rapist nor pervert.

I have suppressed, suppressed it all

Do I express my desire?

No, I don't have the balls!

I have a privilege- penis?

No it is 'society' that does.

An earning daughter-

"Man" of the house, she is stated, 

A son earning,

Does nothing but only expected!

Happiness is something-

I am allowed to spread,

Be a man, not cry!

If at all, I am sad?

Chivalrous I have to be,

Misogynist I cannot be.

Many a times,

I would love to cry,

If I can.

But instead, I have to be happy, 

and smile,

Because I am a man!

I'll take the throne

I'll take the throne

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

The playing cards have jack and ace.

Ranking gives 'moves' even to the pieces of chess.

The games of this century is quite wierd to play.

To ensure safety of king(chess), every one becomes a prey.

I know-Life is not a game.

But it is-quite harsh.

'Right to live' is still very sparse

One has to earn money or starve to death

Toil and toil even till the very last breath.

It makes me think, think so hard

Let's play a game,

A game-better than any game of cards

I'll compete with many veteran players.

For the reward-power, money and fame.

Though I know it is a never ending game.

I have made up my mind, 

You too get it ingrained.

I will make my move and the reward will change.

Power, money and fame- 

will lose its charm.

Success will get redefined

And a new throne will be made.

I'll take this unique throne-

The one which is yet to be claimed.

It's my Rasleela

It's my Rasleela

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

If only, you have

Seen or met me.

Whether you are-

Someone close, 

Or someone who just know me.

Remember how we met?

The first eye contact,

Interactions after that,

Our last meeting..

How did I make you feel?

Happy

Sad

Angry

Pacified

Hatred

Jealous

Or in love?

However, you feel now

You feel it, because you are meant to.

At the same time-

I have been through a lot

Some I hate,

Some I love,

The rest- are in between

Some I want to meet again

Some never.

Believe it or not,

It is all part of my 'Leela'

The 'Rasaleela'

And I confess-

I enjoy it more than ever.

There is no separation:

No guy,

Or girl.

No one ugly,

Or beautiful.

No one committed,

Or single.

No one leaves,

And no one stays.

The experience is divine in nature-

I feel connected to you.

And subconsciously,

You are connected to me.

You are divine

You are divine

-Ismat Ahmed Shaikh

Give away the shame 

That holds you away from your lover

Give away the prayers

That makes you someone's worshipper

Give away the dreams

That keeps you awake

For a moment, forget everything 

And just take a break

What if beyond what you think

Is your true identity 

Your true potential

What if in actual 

This reality is surreal

All that you have done

All that you wanted to do

The compromises

The sacrifices

The restrictions 

Holds in heaven, no value

Infact, the heaven or the hell-

Was all something to control

What if God himself

wanted you

Wanted you to sit besides him

until he is able to prove-

That you are him

And him is none but you...

And if you are God 

Do I need to tell you?

Live like a freak

There will be divinity in that

And yes, all this is (perhaps) nothing but true!

Intentional Randomness

Fjfjfjfjfjfjfjffjfjfjfjffjffjffj*****This is a code

I typed it….Just typed it out of nothing.
But why did my fingers go on “f” and “j”

Why did I start with first letter in caps?
Though it seems it is mere randomness. It is not!
So, let’s analyze it…

I opened the laptop…Stared on the screen for a minute.
Opened word doc and wrote this magical code “Fjfjfhfkaflhflkd”
Tried to do it again now but can’t reproduce!

Until I purposefully look at what I had written and type, copying it letter by letter.

Let me introduce some intentional control and type randomly, ”Ffjfjfjffjfjfjfjfjfjfjffjfj” ...

It comes to something close to the original code.

Any event which happened by “Randomness” can be approximately reproduced by intentional randomness again and again.
“Fjfjfjffjfjfjfjfjffjfjfjfjffj”

The base here “F” and “J” is to be identified.

What’s the base of the stars, the planets, the light, sound,
These fucking objects which may have occurred by randomness.

Can be intentionally reproduced by intentional randomness.
Identify the base!!!(It should be ideally not more than two “things”)

Conversion of Energy into matter and back

First step to becoming a God!

Whenever the human mind claimed-"I can become God", he was challenged to do what only God can do. Only the God can create universe out of nothing.

Human mind works on logic and not just pure philosophies.

Let's analyse the problem. Create universe from nothing!

Actual scientific problem: Creation of matter from energy.

Let's take a drop of water as a matter to be created from XXXX. This XXXX or nothing is the energy around us.

So the actual problem is creating H2O(water) from electromagnetic waves(energy).

We have to find the link between the H2O and electromagnetic waves which ranges from radio waves to gamma waves.

Let's look closer to H2O. Hydrogen and oxygen. Oxygen is complex. Let's leave it aside and concentrate on hydrogen atom with just 1 electron and 1 proton tied together.

The point I am getting at is if only I could create one electron, one proton and ensure the electron remains in the orbit, my objective is achieved.

But where will I get one electron and one proton from?

I have to create it from electromagnetic waves. Let's look close and understand if at all there is any link between electromagnetic waves and the hydrogen atom's electron and proton.

What is exactly an Electromagnetic wave?

A photon! Vibrating at a specific frequency and has a specific wavelength creating electric and magnetic field at right angles.

Now, I have to create an electron and a proton....ensure electrons remain close to the nucleus which is mainly proton.

What I am supposed to create all this from a photon.

Now here is one interesting link

The hydrogen atom emits a photon when it's electron moves to the lower state.

What happened here is a negligible mass of the atom is lost and is converted into energy.

Another important phenomenon is the atomic size increases when the electron absorbs a photon and moves to higher state.

Postulate 1:
The atom is not just comprises of electron and proton but has a void. This void is the photon which does not vibrate and hence becomes void.

Now we are still away from the problem of creating electron and proton from a photon.

Assumptions:
1) The photon is the single basic building block of the universe-The unity. This photon vibrates to create electric and magnetic field and introduces duality. When you have a pair, it can be permuted to form infinite universe.

Imagine the universe is filled with energy and has formed all the waves in the electromagnetic spectrum.

Postulate 2:
The universe has evolved in terms of waves from higher energy waves(gamma) to lower energy waves(radio). Hence matter can receive radio waves more easily than gamma waves. Radio waves are much younger in the universe.

Postulate 3:
The waves are not only slowing down into lower energy waves. The photons collide to get higher speed as well and hence universe's energy composition is not decreasing.

Postulate 4:
Since the energy is always preserved, universe can never be destroyed. The extreme possibility is-it will combine into one photon which will again oscillate to give rise to big bang releasing just energy which over time create matter and then complex living organisms.

Let's get back to our problem of creating electron and proton from photon.

A photon vibrating at one frequency in an electromagnetic waves collides with the photons in the other frequency. This rare combination which is the furnace for the formation of matter results in compacting numerous photons.

To form hydrogen, one photon collides but is confined by other photons. Like what happens in a crowd.

1) The one in the centre is crowded from all the sides to move. This collection is called nucleus in today's languag. It has mass due to high magnetic field it possesses but has lost the electric field.
2) the proton is a collection of photon which has mainly positive electric field but neglible magnetic field compared to nucleus.
3) The electron is the set of photons which has least magnetic field but high negatively charged magnetic field.
4) the most important photons are the one which has no electric or magnetic field and forms the void. These are the photons which get released when electron moves to lower state. This squeezes the photon out of the atom as the atom shrinks in size.

So, hydrogen atom and thus other elements and molecules like H2O can be formed from the photon.

The photon photon collider is the great step. But the time is of essential value. When that rare combination will happen is a major hurdle.

So, study the existing places where this phenomenon is already happening in the universe to get the exact variables needed and the exact number of photons needed. The first element in the universe is presumably hydrogen and will be the first made by the human beings.

Work to calculate the exact variables and exact conditions to create it can be initiated once this theory is approved.

Theory of heaven and hell

The process of influence by thoughts start much before our birth. When a person is in his mother's womb, he gets influenced by her mother's thoughts and how her mother perceives the world, start influencing his thoughts. That is the reason why it is said that a pregnant mother should think of good things happening around her. Also, it is advised for care to be taken so that she does not go through any negative emotions such as trauma, anger, depression,etc.

After birth, the newborn gets influenced depending on how people explain things to him and how much he reasons the explanations given to him. This influence continues throughout his life. But the amazing thing is death. No one has ever tried to explain what happens to our thoughts after death.

The thoughts play an important role even at the time of death. Suppose the person dying has done bad deeds throughout his life and he has been told by everyone that a person who has done bad deeds will have a bad death and will rot in hell and so on. He starts forming such thoughts at the time of his death.

Suppose a person is going to die in 30 seconds from now. First few seconds he will start feeling fear. His senses start fading, then he starts feeling difficulty in breathing, then his heartbeat stops. After all these natural events, what happened to his thoughts?

His thoughts still prevail. Many religions say that even after death the person can feel what is happening to him for a long time. That's because of his thoughts. His thoughts forces him to create an eternal illusion of getting tormented. He creates an illusion of hell depending upon the negative thoughts he has experienced and created throughout his life.

On the other hand, a person who has done good deeds and has no guilt at the end will feel the exact opposite. He will create his own illusion of heaven. Yes, you heard it right "an illusion" of heaven.

Now, hinduism, buddhism and several others has a concept of moksha. Moksha is not creating either heaven or hell. A person who has understood the fact that heaven and hell is an illusion. At the time of death, such a person feels complete and feels unified to the eternity.

But at the end, the thoughts at the time of death cannot be controlled voluntarily. You develop that kind of thought through your deeds during your life. So, if your deeds happen only because you want to go to heaven after death, then start thinking once again!

Theory of rebirth

Few religions take into consideration the concept of reincarnation. So here is my take on that.

Thoughts are very unique and one of the things that is immortal. When a person dies, his thoughts remain in the world in the form of memories in the minds of his dear ones. Even in his enemies in the form of negative thoughts. Thoughts take the shape of personalities and its the personality which makes us feel he resembles someone from the past.

Suppose the great scientist Newton has had several thoughts that became part of his personality. In a very rare situation, there may be a person born who has similar thoughts and thus very similar personality. People assume that he is reincarnation of Newton. But in reality, the person may have picked up Newton's thoughts and hence has developed personality traits resembling Newton.

Reincartion is just transfer of thoughts of a person belonging to different time and place to another person who is born in different time and place.

Also when we say a person will be reborn as an animal. It represents that his deed emerging out of his thoughts were like animal(senseless and menacing) and hence in rebirth he will be an animal.
Thus metaphorically again representing transfer of thoughts.

Theory of ultimate database of knowledge

I used to wonder how can Prophets from many religions, scientists like Einstein, Newton,  and others were able to understand what they have not even physically seen or heard about. How they were able to predict so many things about the future and were even able to understand what may have happened in the past. Scientists and researchers discover most of the things to be true.

We throughout our life gather much of the information. But very few discover the skills of extracting knowledge from whatever we experience. Do you remember the story in which a king was defeated in a war and he runs away from the battlefield and hides in a cave. In the cave, he sees a spider trying to climb the wall. The spider falls down. But he tries again and again until it climbs up the wall. The king after seeing this, gets a lesson of determination and goes to the battlefield and wins the war. Any sensible person would have not taken the same situation of seeing the spider in the same way. A person like you and me might have got frustrated by the spider falling again and again and might have killed the spider out of frustration.

The point I am trying to make is we have the entire information from the creation of the universe till where it is going to end, stored within our thoughts. We are made up of elements which have stardust from all over the universe. The information can only be unlocked by introspection.

Now what is introspection? It means permutation of available information for checking the best possible theory that fits the puzzle. After solving one puzzle i.e. creating best possible theory, you are likely to encounter another puzzle. You have to keep solving puzzles continuously infinitely and there may be times when you would need to modify or delete the old theory to solve the new encountered puzzle. It is an infinitely long process. The process may help us identify the past and proceeding in the same manner, we can also identify the future. The solution can tell us where we came from and where we are heading.

Many prophets have written in religious books what is going to happen after 1000 years from then and how the earth came into existence. Many of which hold true and are scientifically prove. Many of the prophets were uneducated.

Introspection is similar to philosophical thinking. It’s like conducting experiments in your thoughts. The advantage is you are not limited by boundaries of physical world. It’s a kind of virtual experiment. It can solve simple problems like what is happening wrong in a relationship to how did the universe came into existence. However, a normal person’s mind may get unstable conducting such a complex experiment. He has to prepare himself physically and mentally to halt the experiment and resume the experiment on his will.

Introspection is the ultimate book of knowledge which is accessible to everyone-rich, poor, literate, illiterate and it doesn’t have the limitation of language and also does not require a teacher. The experience is unique to the person introspecting. You may find a person, many times mistaken to be God, speaking to you in the beginning of introspection. Later stage of introspection will lead you to understand that it’s you talking to yourself.